Tuesday, March 30, 2010
-12:08 AM
there are days where you feel as if you're overcoming the hugest mountain,
there are days where it seems impossible to finish the workload at hand,
there are days where you fear what is ahead of you,
there are days where you feel so angry with the world,
there are days where you feel so lousy or not good enough.
but on these days, God is always with us.
"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you."
-Psalm 32:8
He's watching us, and He will bring us through whatever is before us,
whether it is the dark raging seas or the looming grey clouds.
"Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicket or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers.
But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.
He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers."
- Psalm 1:1-3
"Your Word i have hidden in my heart that i might not sin against You." -Psalm 119:11
Lord, please bless my studies and health. please bless my family. please bless my church.
i want You to be everything to me
Thursday, March 25, 2010
-10:04 AM
i know that if i want to do well, i have to study hard.
and the whole time i'm at home, i'm whiling all that time away.
this is bad. i need to get my gears moving fast, but of course, i've got to get them to start moving first.
i hope this isn't too late.
if my laziness and my lack of discipline is going to pull down my grades, i probably should stab myself.
i think it would have been possible for God to allow me to attain the GPA to retain my scholarship,
but it seems as if it has ebbed further and further away since school started and i only have less than 3 weeks left.
maybe i gave up, maybe i'm just lousy.
but my trust in God shall never fail.
either He's going to give me the scholarship (because i know nothing is impossible to God) or He's going to provide me an education without too much of a financial burden for my parents.
i love God, and i thank Him,
because i think He has been well to me and my family.
Lord, i'm worried about my parents, let them keep their jobs, and their pay be sufficient.
Lord, i pray for you to fill me with the knowledge of Your will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so i may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please Him in every way; bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to Your glorious might so that i may have great endurance and patience.
and i joyfully give thanks.
You're
wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way
-12:19 AM
i think they will be times in your life when you see a guy and you think "Oh. i think he's the right one for me." but then again, if this happens more than once, maybe we just don't know who's the right one for us. so how do we know, when will we know?
i came across this boy. he's in my school. but he doesn't know me, might not even know of my existence. and i don't know him either. it's really weird, but i feel, like he might just be the right guy for me. like i said, i don't know him. so maybe i'm wrong. but Lord, he's a christian, and he seems like a decent guy who may just be the one i'm looking for. how nice it would be to grow spiritually together with my future husband.
Lord, i don't know, but i trust that You'll make the right decision for me. because you know best, and you'll give me the best.
"The Sovereign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary.
He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught.
The Sovereign Lord has opened my ears, and i have not been rebellious; i have not drawn back."
- Isaiah 50:4-5
God gave us spiritual gifts, and we have to discover them, and then use them for His glory.
let's always be ready to give someone an encouraging word or show caring concern to someone who needs it, and point them towards our Savior who offers life, and sustains us.
We might bring to our Lord one of his many lost sheep (:
Lord, let me be a shining light in all i say and do,that Your great love displayed in me may lead someone to you.- Sper
Sunday, March 21, 2010
-7:56 AM
God is amazing!
it is true that He listens to our prayers, and blesses us with what we pray for.
(even though i often feel undeserving of it.)
"Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God , who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment.
Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share.
In this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life."
- 1 Timothy 6: 17-19
we need to have radical generosity,
to give to God, to share with His people, to do good works.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
-10:07 PM
often i have a hard time making decisions,
but instead of focusing on doing what i like,
i should let God be the center of my life.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."
- James 1:2-8
we have to learn to face our problems head-on, and take joy in them,
knowing that God uses such trials to refine us into someone stronger.
Lord, i pray for intelligence and focus (:
let me do well this semester!
Friday, March 19, 2010
-5:17 PM
i'm sitting at a quiet corner of my school,
with my laptop, papers, and a cup of bubbletea.
this is quite a nice feeling somehow.
ok do work do work do work!
-12:30 AM
my life is in such a mess.
i'm so sick of school, so sick of people and so sick of myself.
i really don't see how i'm going to get out of this unscathed.
time is passing so fast i forget the days and nights, and they end up being mashed up into some sort of blur.
but then again, that's when God comes in, ain't it.
how funny it is that my friend reminded me to pray.
it's during times of need that we remember to seek God, and that isn't right.
i miss how i used to pray to God every night, without fail, thanking Him for all the blessings He has showered upon me.
why have i changed into someone so different?
"Save me, O God, by your name; vindicate me by your might.
Hear my prayer, O God; listen to the words of my mouth.
Strangers are attacking me; ruthless men seek my life—
men without regard for God.
Selah
Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
Let evil recoil on those who slander me; in your faithfulness destroy them.
I will sacrifice a freewill offering to you; I will praise your name, O LORD, for it is good.
For he has delivered me from all my troubles, and my eyes have looked in triumph on my foes."
-Psalm 54
It's very comforting how God speaks to me sometimes,
and i know he hears my cries.
I should have faith in Him, that He will carry me through.
when life gets tough, let's remember to allow God to pull us up by His power, hold on to Him, and be strong in Him.
"but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
-Isaiah 40:31
Thursday, March 18, 2010
-1:45 AM
i'm a horrible time-waster.
i wonder why i take so long to get some work done.
i feel so lousy in school - stupid and a bad speaker.
and i hate to be average, not say below average. ughhhhh.
and there are so many imperfections i see within myself.
and my flaws are further accentuated by the people around me right now.
but i guess everything is not a mistake,
but all so that we can live out the purpose God has in mind for us.
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him...
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows."
- James 1:12, 17
how can i describe who God is to me?
i can't. but i can only say that i am nothing without Him.
God's love for us will never falter nor fail, regardless of what happens.
Everything changes, but Him.
How comforting is it to know that He is always there waiting for us, with great love, no matter what befalls us in this world.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
-1:02 AM
i haven't had a good sleep in a long long while.
my eyebags are horrendous. i think if i walk out of my house without applying any concealer, people might just scream and run away in horror.
yes, i am horrible at times and sneak off to sleep when i'm supposed to be doing work,
but, it cannot be considered restful since work's perpetually on my mind even if i doze off.
i feel so guilty always, whenever i'm not doing work :/
i hate it that i'm such a hypocrite, that my words are not resounded with my actions.
i hate it that my heart and mind is so WEAK.
how can i be a Christian, and yet be so lousy.
there's so many things i want to do, want to be, but it seems as if there are other seemingly more important things weighing on my mind.
surely my balance is tipped, on the wrong side.
Starfield - UnashamedI have not muchTo offer YouNot near what You deserveBut still I comeBecause Your crossHas placed in me my worthOh, Christ my KingOf sympathyWhose wounds secure my peaceYour grace extendsTo call me friendYour mercy sets me freeAnd I know I'm weakI know I'm unworthyTo call upon Your nameBut because of graceBecause of Your mercyI stand here unashamedI can't explainThis kind of loveI'm humbled and amazedThat You'd come downFrom heavens heightsAnd greet me face to faceHere I am at Your feetIn my brokenness complete sometimes we look to God for answers.
why why why.
why is my life turning out this way? what is His plan for me? will i triumph this ordeal?
at such times, we need faith, despite all appearances, to trust that God is at work and all will be well.
God will never let us fall.
Wait for it, because it will surely come.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
-1:00 AM
i often use being busy as an excuse.
when deep inside, i know, there's never no time for God.
where my life is now like a rollercoaster, with sharp turns and stomach-flipping loops,
i realize the only thing that is stable in my life is still God.
and i thank God, for everything in my life.
because not only He provides the necessary, He gives me more than what i ask for.
"How awesome is the Lord Most High, the great King over all the earth!
He subdued nations under us, peoples under our feet.
He chose our inheritance for us, the pride of Jacob, whom he loved."
- Psalm 47:2-4
God <3