lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Saturday, October 17, 2009
-9:12 PM
Lord, I am feeling very afraid now.
What if I cannot do well in law?
There are alot of 'what if's in my mind right now.
I worry, about not doing well, losing my scholarship, and not being able to get through these 4 years.
My entire mind is crammed and occupied with anxiety and distress.
I wonder where is my faith, where is the trust I have in you.
You tell me, nothing can go against me if you're with me; and that since you brought me here, you will bring me through it.
I know.
But. what if i fail your expectations, mine and everyone else's expectations.
There seems to be this huge looming brick wall ahead of me right now,
and I can't seem to see past to the other side,
to see what you have planned for me,
or even get to the other side.
Lord, you know I feel so awful.
I go to church and I have to put on a cheerful and carefree face, and teach those little kids,
because you gave me brains, and I must use them to serve you.
but Lord, my preoccupied thoughts about failing, is holding me back, gradually.
I feel so stressed. I feel like I am lagging behind the rest. I am losing steam. I think I can't do it.
But Lord. I know you're 'my strength and portion' forevermore,
when I fall, you will always be the one to pick me up.
And you teach me, that when i am weak, then i am strong.
I go to school, and I try to get through the routine, to get pass the day,
but I know I am so lousy inside.
It feels so bad.
I cannot imagine doing my exams when I am so empty in my brains.
"We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ. To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me." -Colossians 1:28-29
Lord, thank you.
You tell me something different, you tell me that you have given me a gift,
and I must use this gift to advance Your kingdom in this world.
With what I have, I will serve you.
